my scheduled execution date’s before my birthday / plug your ears and fuck me backwards from yesterday / cut me open and put my insides on display / thats what you want from me, right? / thats what you want from me / the question of right or wrong, smart or dumb, or play pretend / put a spike to my face and hammer it straight in / a pretty piercing to compliment my lack of wit / thats what you wanna see / thats what you wanna be naive girls always get mistreated / lobotomize me / you wont believe me with receipts / lobotomize me / stupidity’s your greatest feat / lobotomize me / im who you wanna be / come get obsessed with me / (surgery, surgery) i’ll look the same to you / (surgery, surgery) with a hole in my brain / (surgery, surgery) thats what girls are to you / (surgery, surgery) take my autonomy away you can do anything with money and audacity / “it doesn't matter who you fucked, a bitch is all i see” / ask me about my sex life, i’ll give it all for free / thats what you want from me, right? / thats what you from me / gullible women should never get to have the spotlight / so white knights can steal, barter, and fuck her life / and if you think i’m being harsh, then i know im the right / thats what you wanna see / thats what you want from me / naive girls always get mistreated / lobotomize me / you wont believe me with receipts / lobotomize me / stupidity’s your greatest feat / lobotomize me / im who you wanna be / come get obsessed with me / (surgery, surgery) i’ll look the same to you / (surgery, surgery) with a hole in my brain / (surgery, surgery) thats what girls are to you / (surgery, surgery) take my autonomy away / im who you wanna be / come get obsessed with me / take my autonomy / i’ll let you lobotomize me naive girls always get mistreated / lobotomize me / you wont believe me with receipts / lobotomize me / stupidity’s your greatest feat / lobotomize me / im who you wanna be / come get obsessed with me / (surgery, surgery) i’ll look the same to you / (surgery, surgery) with a hole in my brain / (surgery, surgery) thats what girls are to you / (surgery, surgery) take my autonomy away

>>> [7/20/2026] ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ Lobotomize Me - The Rat Utopia

Haven't we all been on a few month hiatus in life?

SO. It's. It's been a while. LOL.

But essentially just cause I can I'm gonna make this post pretty long so I can go over the different media I've consumed in the few months I've been gone. I'll go through this in parts since I want to and this is my blog („• ֊ •„)੭!! But yeah this summer has been the one where essentially I try and do something so I don't end up doing nothing.

PART 1: Project Hail Mary

Okay so I loved this movie. I've been trying to get into longer forms of media to be honest, just cause I want to try and defeat the mindworms that crawled in my ears the second Instagram added reels.